Happiness.

"Most people would rather be certain they're miserable, than risk being happy."
-Robert Anthony

Happiness is such an interesting thing to me. Because it has eluded me for so long. That was not meant to sound as emo as it probably did but it is the truth. I have found it very hard to be happy, really and truly happy.

Except recently, I've been very happy. I don't know what brought this change. Maybe I was trying to hard to be happy, or maybe I've been doing something wrong? I don't even know. I think happiness is not so much a mood like most people think, but a mindset, a stringing together of little moments that make you happy so that you can remain so longer. Last night I got very upset, I won't go into the reasons, it was stupid, but I found it hard to stay upset long, the second I left the situation which made me upset I went back to being happy.

I'd also like to note that now that I've stopped my Acutane and Zoloft I seem to be much better, less angry, and less depressed. Maybe that was my problem. I don't know. I'm just glad to be happy again.

And now! here's French Buddhist monk talking about happiness. :)